At midnight, I wonder why crave flesh cutting,
Was not it enough I stayed in hatred to destroy myself?
I wonder how it feels to love someone,
All known is the chronic darkness years claimed.
Haven’t you cut a bad woman in life I lived?
I tried to end my sufferings and you saved to suffer.
Again, I desire to go back in darkness
Where my flesh would rot and my soul would scream,
That would not last, my dear, nothing does for me.
I felt loved and it goes away in nothingness,
I love and it goes away in nothingness.
I ask no more of pain and hate,
Come and stay to leave another night,
I’m trying to stop another destruction,
My mind is conspiring again!