After school, made plans to meet,
Lied, manipulated, blind-love sick,
We met a crowded place to lunch,
Smiled; joked; touched; walked to leave,
Held hands, adrenaline rush, lost control!
I said, “shall I touch your lips to low anxiety?”
Unaware of my sickness, I needed her,
Betraying someone else’s presence higher,
Fearing, desiring, guilting, passioning, lost
Never felt that uncontrolled blood flow,
I desired to dream my life with her.
I knew I was deceiving someone,
Someone unknown; someone only mine,
She made me feel her presence few months back,
Carrying scars of proven ownership,
Our relationship unworthy to be surfaced,
But, it did; did in ways of lord’s mysterious ways.
Ignored existences; avoided stares; unleashed beast,
I put her desirous body against the foundation,
Digged my fingers in back of her, monstrously,
And, put my lips on those innocent crimson lips,
I tasted the holy blood; first of life as a beast,
Time elapsed; desires increased; fears took over,
She pushed me back!
She asked me to go back to someone,
Scars greened again; I kissed again,
We left for home; well, she did.
Wanted by someone for centuries,
Kneeled in guilt for punishment,
I bleed myself, Deathra!
I went close to someone,
I lost her,
With for everything!
Years passed, her became many,
That someone remained; remains,
Undetected; in silence; destroying,
As I played with someone’s soul.
That kiss! Deathra!